Morose

although i have been able to rid the garage and house of TONS of books, I still feel overwhelmed and closed in from all the books and piano. There is just not enough room in the house to hold the books. I Don't know why i always feel like i'm living in a cave...ugh.

funerals

One of the people from church died Friday, services are on Wed. I spent the church meeting planning my own funeral. I have all the songs and scriptures, I think. Now all I have to do is time everything. No sense in having everyone waste 3 hours of their time! What am I going to know/Care at that point?

Houses

We drove by several old houses today...none still loved and all in an advanced state of decay. Why do we not value oldness? What happened to the memories/people that once lived in those houses? Is there any reason we Should value oldness? I believe we should cherish it much more than we do. Perhaps that is a direct result of my age?

intro

too much going too wrong in my life to leave where they can see it. hence a new blog